Maintenance Problems: When I think about the end of this week and the parting of ways that always accompanies the end of the term, I start thinking about what it'll be like to strike out on my own, to be in control of my own writing-destiny, and to walk high on the wire without a net. I think of all the support and routine I've had and built over the past three weeks, and I wonder what it will be like when I'm forced to rejoin the 'real world'. Four weeks has taught me a lot, but I'm nervous. Imagine what Boice's writers were thinking after 9 months of support and community, only to be similarly forced out on their own: no wonder there're relapses.
Durability is the key here. To avoid the peaks and valleys that scuttle most regular-writing programs. It's not just an issue of avoiding the lows (brought on by depression), but also managing the highs as well (hypomania, binging, not stopping, etc). Holding one's self back is a very strange concept to me, and I suppose I've had trouble with it in the past. Some of my blocks create the necessity to binge, and while it's happening it feels okay, and then the project's done, so what's not to like. Well, it's hard to be a person, as we've talked about. But that's also a sure-fire way to not return to the writing and to really dread doing it in the first place.
A measured, steady pace of writing must be striven for. Boice's suggestions are helpful, too, for trying to get me to that place.
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